home naturally should mean the place we live in ....

but to me i still have mixed feeling trying to decide where is home....

the place i feel belonged, the placed i feel comfortable or the place i live....

perhaps i can have 3 homes??? haha.....

our ability to have not just complex thinking mechanism but our ability to coordinate our thoughts, then execute it with emotions attached to it.

often times we think we are superior to other creatures... i think its not that we are superior just that we are more complex. the superiority of human race is only proven when we are able to use our complex mental faculty to benefit others and make sound decision in the interest of not just human kind but pause to reconsider the consequences of our action on the world which includes environment and other living being.

well, certainly its not easy being a human, but perhaps this is why we are created with such complicated mental faculty.

each family is unique to its own....

as for my own family ....well thank god that in this age - i have a complete family - parents and siblings.

i often marvel at how my parents managed to raise all of us (despite our differences in our personalities )each of us hold same values till now. ...

when i reflect the relationship i have with my parents, how i used to enjoy every single thing my father does ( of course i've now grown out of that stage) i tend to agree that having a child is a most beautiful thing in the world. now and then i wonder how my father feels having a miniature of him around....

and the most beautiful thing in the world?  

i believe is seeing the love my parents have for each other growing each day ... and my love for my family growing despite the distance that adds on as the year goes by......

its a blessing indeed...

and i wish every child in this world will be blessed to enjoy the unconditional love of their parents and their siblings...

i move every two to three years once. now thats a lot of moving so much so that i've decided to live with minimum stuff ( hard to do as gal :-) )

its tiring not just physically but mentally, its frustrating and the endless number of nights i will lay awake thinking how to pack; what goes where and how many boxes i want, what else i can throw... gee...

but when i've moved i usually feel refeshed; the fun exploring new neighbourhood, the joy when i discover a nice eatery around my new place...

now moving to new country is even more exciting..its not just meeting new people or finding out where is your nearest grocery store but you need to learn the differences in terms of law and regulation, language, culture ...list is long but it makes life exciting, fun.... and just as you find you get comfortable... its time to move again and the moving process starts all over again....

interesting thing about keeping yourself busy is that it keeps your mind occupied... keeps you off or rather delays the cognitive decline. In fact being physically occupied is suppose to be a good thing because it keeps you alert.

but over do it and you end up with all the chronic diseases related to too much of free radicals....

of course then the ultimate question is how do a person draw the line that defines what is healthy dose of "being busy" ?

the spirits felt free and the sensory feels a heightened level of senstiveness.....

perhaps its true that when you let go everything and switch off your brain everything else in you is awaken....

suddenly there is a surge of being able to appreciate colors of life, ability to differentiate and register smell and taste..

wonders of vacation.....

the craving to experince rush of adrenaline and followed by increased release of endorphin...

time to me is priceless... sometimes i feel happy with the amount of money i make... but i'm always wishing i have more time..i dont think i ever said this before " I HAVE ENOUGH TIME"... not even once...

start the day by waking up late.... in fact its the reason i look forward for weekends.... and well if i have nothing to do on that weekend i just love to lie on the bed read a good book.... no music, no tv, no hp, just me and my book.... and well sleep late...

such a simple wish for a weekend yet its so hard to come by...